[He sighs and sinks a little further back in the cushions, curling inward on himself and staring at his knees.]

There is when you know better. And by now, I know better. And yet here I am. Once again, upset over something that nobody has any control over. It's like...it's like Dad all over again. Only this time it's even worse. Don't get me wrong, I love Dad. He's great and he's probably the closest thing I will ever get to my actual Dad here. But Vriska...she was...

[He tries to keep talking but ends up making a strangled sort of whimper instead. There's a lump in his throat now and it's hard to talk around it. He just wants to curl up and cry until he stops feeling like shit. That sounds like a good idea to him. He couldn't cry in front of Karkat but Rose...Rose is different. He can be vulnerable in front of Rose.]